Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Twelve weeks on Monday… but I couldn't wait another day

This was taken at like 10 and a half weeks. I think I usually go to the doctor earlier, so that first ultrasound is just a heart beat or a circle in a sac…. this was amazing to me that I could already see the baby! Wiggling…. floating… arms moving…. fingers.

It never gets old. Amazing.

Ross and I were talking and it's almost even more emotional and amazing this time around because we're that much more aware of what it all means. I can hear Sophia pray fervently on her knees, BY HERSELF in the other room that Heavenly Father not give us a big earthquake "I won't forget about you, and please don't ever ever forget to NOT make a big earthquake" (we had a little one the other night and she's been watching a lot of the Living Scriptures), and I can listen to Mila tell me the details of her snow-monster dream and how she doesn't want to go on the Matterhorn again even though the snow-monster said "RARRRR I'm nice Mila, I'm your friend!"...

…. and I can't wait to hear what this little one is going to have to say. With two parents AND two older sisters to adore and teach and lead, I can only imagine.

The first few weeks were rough, I felt really icky and nauseous and tired and emotional… and then my dad passed. It was a lot. I have good friends---- thanks…. all of the kind words were that much more needed.

I feel more lumpy and heavy than I ever remember feeling at the beginning of pregnancy--- I'm not even 12 weeks and if you're local, I'm SURE you've been wondering if I'm having a baby… or just ate something similar in size. The only thing that made me feel better those first few weeks was eating, so I seriously ate ALL day long. I was so sick of food and coming up with things that sounded palatable. But it was worth it to curb the nausea.

So I don't know if it's partly showing earlier on the third baby, and partly eating like I'm storing up for winter, or just entirely the latter. But I'm certainly nervous for the next 28 weeks at this rate. I stare at my closet and try clothes on for like a half hour before I go anywhere in one of the same two tunics. Or work out clothes of course. And it's swim suit season. Rad.

And then last night I checked my old friend Erika's blog, from my BYU Hawaii days…. she's pregnant too…. but apparently is of a different species than me. Check her out. You kill me Erika.

BUT--- it's worth it. I'm so aware that it's all worth it. I can't wait to feel it kick and elbow and stretch and hiccup… I can't wait to have Ross lay his head on my belly to hear the heart beat (he really can--- it's comforting at the end), and make him leave his hand there at an awkward angle longer than he'd like, to feel the movement. I hate being pregnant but I LOVE being pregnant. You know?

36 comments:

aapuzzanchera said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!

AJ said...

Lillie!
So excited for you and Ross. You make the most beautiful babies.
Congrats.
Anna Jensen

Kym said...

YEAH!!! So proud that I knew before you blogged. Makes me feel like a real friend! :) You look fantastic by the way!! I know you don't think so, but you do.

SANDY said...

Congratulations!

Sarie said...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that is so great. SO GREAT. BEST NEWS EVER.

Sarie said...

and I second Kym, of course you look fantastic, even though I haven't seen you, I doubt you are lumpy like you think. seriously, get real.

Helena said...

Congratulations!!

The rlmmmmcaress family said...

Congrats and good luck with everything. Three is magical. Now you will be outnumbered! I love hearing every little thought in your mind so I love having all the pregnancy thoughts to read. Can't wait to read every gory detail (and the good stuff too.)

staceykt22 said...

Congratulations Lillie!

Lauren said...

So excited for you! I'm sure you're definitely NOT lumpy. You are so pretty ALWAYS. :) 3 kids is awesome!

alliehoopes said...

love love it. the only problem is I'm set on waiting until Max is about 3 before going for #3 and I'm sure a Lillie baby with Lillie pictures in Lillie clothes and blankets is going to make me hungry early. so then the pink and blue post (with my lovely kitty, thank you, glad you like it) has a new funny little meaning. pink and blue. you're wonderful.

Francis said...

Congratulations!!!!

HMB said...

awwwwwwwwwwww yay!! We're due in October with our little girl Olivia Belle! Congrats!xoxox!

S.A.S. said...

You really do owe the earth as many beautiful blondes as you can produce. I love your girls, and know I'll love this little one with abandon too. Can't wait to hear the pregnancy details - they mean much more to me now!
xo's
p.s. won't it be cute to see Mila as an older sister?

Ashley said...

Congratulations!! I love reading your blog. I feel like I am your friend (even though you have no idea who I am) so I just had to comment. I am so excited for you!! I just had my third little one. It's been so amazing. :)

Erika Allred said...

Congratulations!!! Lillie you're so silly! I'll be posting some new photos of my body now. I'm feeling like crap lately and eating has been the only thing that has helped with the nausea, so in just one week I've gained quite a belly and handles. Anyways, I'm so excited for you and I hope we both have boys!

Heather | Cookie Mondays said...

Oh, I totally know! Congratulations! This is so exciting :)

Melissa said...

Congrats Lillie!! That's fantastic news... I did gain a little more with my 3rd than my other 2... but I think that had more to do with my awesome Doctor who told me I needed to have more calcium and the best way to get it was through milk shakes. I miss her. ;)

Crazy Lifferths said...

Congrats! That is awesome!!

Karley said...

I am crossing my fingers for you to have a big blue eyed baby boy, but seeing as how well you pop amazingly adorable little girls out, another one of those wouldn't hurt either. Yay, for you guys!

Brandon or Michelle said...

hey lady. quite pleased for you. and I'm with allie, I was sure that 2 was good for me for awhile, but just the thought of this and you makes me want to try for a playmate. alas, that is not reality...but at least you know how much effect you have on me.

and I would have loved to catch erika, but I think her blog is private? or maybe only to me, who knows...anyway, hooray for old hawaii friends. gotta love it.

Missy said...

congrats lillie!! best news of the day today..so so happy for you.

Megan Daly said...

Oh lillie you crack me up. You look so cute prego.
But, I couldn't agree more it is a total love/hate relationship with pregnancy for me too. :)

Congrats on baby #3. I can't see you but I know you LOOK AMAZING!! You always do. Seriously!

koko bean..... said...

Congrats!!! I am so happy for you guys! I hope the rest of pregnancy is a wonderful experience!

Simply Amy said...

Congratulations!!!

Clô Manso said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!

Michael, Tiffany, Reese, Cash, and Carter said...

yea...public announcement...finally! those ultrasound pics never get old. incredible. love the way you capture the prego mentality so perfectly. you are gorgeous, duh, even if you're not feeling it!xoxox

Julie said...

Woohoo!!! Congratulations, I am SO jealous. So, super, crazy jealous. These are the golden years. And that includes growing a huge rear-end and saddle bags. Enjoy these next few months. Can't wait to find out what you have.

Megan said...

Congrats Lillie. I was just taking to my husband about having another one last night, then I saw your blog. Coincidence? hmmm... Maybe I'll read how you handle 3 before any decisions are made here. ;)

Heidi McMillan said...

yeah!! Congratulations. What a lucky little one to be joining your family.

Lindsay Griffeth said...

YEAH for you! I'm so excited for you guys. Having a little one in the house sure is nice.

moliver said...

Woo Hoo! I'm so happy for you! There's not many more exciting things than bringing a new life into the world. That's awesome!

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maines said...

Luckily for Erika her blog is private. Or maybe she just made it that way after you linked a prego picture of her on yours. Either way, congrats to you and Erika! Can't wait to see "The Reed" in baby form. ;)

prashant said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!
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D-dawg said...

Lillie (and Ross) congratulations! That is so exciting and I hope you are feeling good Lillie!