Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Dad


Yesterday marked a year since we lost my dad. It was also my birthday which unfortunately will forever be a little bittersweet. Sometimes I'm not sure I'm supposed to talk about it anymore, sometimes I wonder how we talk about anything else--- ever.

But we do, and I know we should, and I know if he's watching he'd want to witness as much action and happiness and laughter and debate and affection and arguing and making up and JOY as possible. He'd want to see it all. He loved life and taught me so much and I miss him like crazy and still think of him every day. Some days more than others. Yesterday was one of those.

I love you so so much, Dad.

6 comments:

*ehu. said...

Yikes, I'm sorry to have wished you a happy birthday yesterday, Lillie.

Sarie said...

Big day. I can't believe it's been a year. What a great man. And you're a great daughter. Hang in there, happy birthday. xoxo

Brandon or Michelle said...

hey love. you are wonderful! I hope your birthday was peaceful and full of good vibes...I'm sure your dad is looking down with a big grin on his face.

Lillie said...

Ehu-- how dare you wish me a happy birthday.

jk... PLEASE don't feel that way. I didn't mean to sound too gray. I still had a happy day and you can never hear enough birthday wishes. :)

Lindsay Griffeth said...

I thought about you this weekend . . . :)

Erin Marriott said...

I still can't believe it's been a year. And yet it still feels like yesterday when we were so little, and I can still hear his big laugh. I'm so sorry you have to feel this enormous pain on your birthday. I actually got on your blog, {ON your birthday}...May 9th always puts a smile on my face, and I think of you, and everything you are. But anyway, I got on your blog, got all caught up, loved all your pictures, (your kids are getting so grown up, and so beautiful, and that little Finn is just edible. I want to squeeze his cheeks.) Anyway, I looked up at the time and realized I had to get to carpool right then. And of course, I forgot to come back on here and wish you a happy birthday! I still can't believe we're 30. And to think you are one of the few special people who is part of my childhood like that, and who has known me that long. I can't believe we were 7! That's like almost Lillie's age next year. Crazy. Yes, there were some gaps here and there, but we always reconnected, right? Anyway, I hope you had a fantastic birthday, and I'm sure Ross spoiled you and made the day special. And p.s. You look gorgeous as ever!! You just keep getting more beautiful to me! Oh and p.s. again...Happy Anniversary! 8 years! You have such a sweet family! Love you Lil.