(Mila in her swing... a common occurrence.)
I remember when my friend Lizzie had her ADORABLE little girl Kate, she mentioned once that she felt bad that Kate spent so much time in the swing so Lizzie could tend her much more demanding (also adorable) two-year old, Tanner. I also remember our friend Rachelle saying in response to Lizzie's concern, "It's the lot of the second child."
So I guess mostly I'm just hoping someone will reaffirm that this might be true. Unfortunate, but true? And maybe without lasting damage? Because I'm pretty sure that when Sophia was happy and content I was still holding her, and talking to her, and reading to her, and counting her toes, and waiting anxiously for any potential smile, and doing 'there was an old bumblebee'......
But when Mila's happy and content, well there's laundry to fold, and Sophia's food to clean up, and dishes to do, and possibly some very unforeseen mess that happened while Mila was NOT happy and content and I was too busy with her to come and see what Sophia was doing as she repeatedly hollered, "uh oh , a mess", and then of course there's just those precious moments I have to make sure and still have with Sophia.
So my sweet, 8 week old, when she's feeling the sweetest, is usually smiling and cooing at the birds and butterflies making circles above her head, rather than her mommy's excited face. I'm sad about that, and just hoping that she still feels as insanely loved and adored as Sophia did. Ope-- she's awake.